Feel

i feel like screaming at the top of my lungs.

i feel like running away.

i feel like crap.

i feel...


i need to make some changes. this is as far as i can take it for my internship in Royale Bintang Hotel. i quit.

All i can do is keep breathing

It has been my 11th day of training in Royale Bintang, The Curve. i have not slept since 11 last night. it is almost 3pm now. wow. haha. coffee.. well... 5 months of hell in the kitchen. i really, really regret taking up Culinary Arts. i admit this is the biggest mistake i've made TO my life. i feel so sorry for myself. i feel so pathetic.

but all i can do is keep breathing. well tonight is going to be the 5th night of my overnight shift (11pm-7am) im slowly adapting to working in this hotel though as i've made new friends who are willing to help me through. hmmm.. so far they scared us with some ghost encounters while working the night shift. initially i wasn't really afraid but.. today... i was alone in the kitchen.. i remember my CDP (Chef De Partie or wtv) saying he saw "something" pressing the combi oven. i have pretty good imagination.. so yeah.. the dancing apron being blown by the blower hanging beside the door really sent chills to my penis.. ahem.. it shrinked.. or shrunked..

anyway. i really really miss my friends. i saw their facebook pics. seems to be so happening. wish i was there too :(



all i can do is keep breathing...

oh ya Marc, if u are reading this, hi.... hahahaha..

The day i almost died

i was that close to meeting the end of my life and stepping into the other world. i got into a car accident. a pretty serious one too.

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i was driving along Jalan Kuching to head home after a session on Frangipani on Friday night which then turned into Saturday morning. well.. i had two glasses of Laichi Martini but i swear i was sober after gulping down a bottle of mineral water

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at 100km/h, along Jalan Kuching before the Segambut roundabout, suddenly without warning my streering wheel just went wild. its like it was possessed with a mind of its own. a mind... to get me killed. it swirled right and i would pull it back to the left. stepping on the brake made things worst and eventually after split seconds of duel with the steering wheels, i crashed to the right road divider and swirled 180 degrees and my back bumper hit the road divided which put a stop to my car

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As i gulp with fear, my mind was set to get to the other side of the road as i am currently in the death zone-the fast lane, againts the road. my main fear was being hit buy a speeding truck or bus as i was trying to struggle to reach the safety zone. i mumbled a short prayer and i trust in God to help me through this. and somehow, i made it.


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i knew i was uninjured. just traumatised. then. i started making calls. to my dad, some friends and the car assistance hotline. there were many many people crowding the scene. i did not like what was going on. as time passed my friend which i've just met for the first time that day, *Marvin , along with his friends arrived at the scene. they really helped console me. my dad finally arrived after what felt like forever. my heart immediately was at ease when i saw my dad. i ran to him and gave him a hug and started sobing a little.. mumbling "di.. im scared........"
he assured me everything is fine and he loves me. i did not want to let go

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well anyway, it was an excruciating experience and i hope it won't ever happen to me, my family or my friends. ever. i am back driving now. very very slowly and carefully. and heck i am filled with fear as i grip the steering wheel tightly. i guess i was still traumatised. oh ya apparently what happened was, my tyre burst. that was the cause of this mishap. sigh.

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anyway.. here are some pictures of my car..


yeah the poor victim was my baby BOB, my 5 month old Toyota Vios. Baby is now somewhere in a factory to be healed. miss my baby.

















my windshield cracked too..














my bruise due to impact with my left hand glove box...










all i can say is i am glad that i am still alive and i appreciate life more now. whenever i close my eyes i think about the incident that nearly robbed me of my life. shattering my family and friend's hearts.






*LOVE LIFE. DRIVE SAFE. DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE*




!!!! THANK YOU *MARVIN and friends FOR BEING SO KIND AND HELPING ME WHEN I AM IN NEED ALTHOUGH I'VE KNOWN YOU GUYS FOR MERELY HOURS!!!

shattered heart.

i hope it rains as i walk to my car soon so nobody can see me cry.

see you guys tonight

oh me my ma

my blog is so hollow and sexily quiet lately. haha. i have so many things to blog about yet i can't seem to express it in words. what happened to me?

anyway.. im so glad my bubble tea days are over!! huhu.! hmmm i got eccepted to do my training in Royale Bintang, The Curve from 2nd January until 2nd June. crazyness. its going to be hell but heck.

oh ya tonight i plan to go to club69 for some Fashionlicious Party. i don't know what it is about but Ian and I are going anyway. haha. tomorrow i have a college dinner at La Meridien Hotel and after that my college mates are going to party~ but i think i'll pass because i don't think i'll join because i don't enojoy their presense. bluwek.

Nick's FRESHLOOK competition finals is going to be on Saturday in Pyramid Mall!! looking forward to that and his victory. wahahaha..

my plan for sunday is still..not filled up.. but im sure it'll be filled up as EDDY is coming back!! huhu!!!!!! (but hope he is not too busy with his new guy Vincent. they were self jodohi in my birthday party)

oh ya im going to 1utama soon to shop for winter clothings. going to Korea on the 13th December until... i don't know when. but i think i'm just going to window shop. ahhhhhh.. seriously broke after my birthday party. oh ya after Korea there might be another holiday trip to SINGAPORE to spend Christmas i think!! OMG im excited. but still broke....... oh ya talking about my brithday party, it was a BLASTTTTTTTTTTT kaBOOMMMMMMMMMMM.... thanks to each and everyone present and my beloved Boylicious for helping me make my 19th birhtday so so memorable and still a hot topic apparently. haha! i'll update a post on my birthday party soon.

well i think i'll run now. bye everyone.

Sunday

Bubble Tea Boy

"Bubble Boy"



argh.. i get really offended at heart now when my friends in college calls me that. well the reason of the new nickname is because i'm running the freaking bubble tea stall in the college. its sort of our assessment thingy for our last semester before heading for practical training. its a 8 weeks semester and i hate it.



initially the first few days i sold around 20-25 cups. the following week the average was 30-40. third week average was 55-70 and this is the fourth week now and today i hit a new target of 85 cups even on a Thursday.! i'm really proud despite being so freaking tired. its from 7.30-5pm everyday until November 28th.



anyway....... i think my "cute-ness" helped a little. some of them talked to me and i made new friends. last week there is this group of friends buying bubble tea and suddenly one of the girls said to me "he is trying to kao you ha ha ha...." shocking how straight forward people can be. the next thing i know, they all added me up in facebook. haha! they're really friendly.



today my market was not bad.. there were people who wanted to accompany me for lunch. totally random. asked if i am having lunch alone.. where.. what time.. "my friend wants to have lunch with you.." i already took a mental video of those rare moments because i felt really appreciated..

hehehe so happy.. at least there are happenings instead of standing there and rot....



ego boost today. hehehe...

oh ya of course i kap zhai while working! the cafeteria is the best place for it :) omg fark fark fark so far there are two or three guys that caught my eyes. one in particular... i just can't stop channeling myself into him.. really tuned into him.. he is awesomely cute and sexy... a smile so sweet.. yet manly.. blessed with a nice body frame.. tall.. small cute eyes... he is sort of the way hotter and upgraded version of me i reckon.. i managed to main mate with him ;P
totally mesmerized to the extent i was willing to postponed my lunch time just to admire him.. he is THAT worth it..