Sunday, September 14, 2008

SquasheD

i was at my aunt's house with my sister a few days ago just chilling around while waiting for my aunt to get ready to head out somewhere. so yeah i was watching TV and suddenly my sister who was talking on the phone SHRIEKED.!! i looked at her in a bimbotic way..

she explained that as the breeze blew the curtain, she saw THIS........






TOTALLY gross. it shit-ed its own tail off. haha! what a coincidence that it was squashed to death by my aunt (without noticing) as she was closing the sliding door.

Rest in Peace Lizard..

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

My Fatty Bombom Days.....

Fattybombom Days


January 2007- March 2008


















Today i bumped into my ex high school teacher in the Tmn Tun Ramahdan Bazaar. she just gave me a fading smile. as if i was a stranger. she then frowned.

"How are you Ryan? What happened to you? Why are you so skinny now?? " she asked, while looking at my body

i was left speechless. almost 20 people said the same thing in the past 3 to 4 months. today i realize how serious it is.

almost everyone including my friends and family said i have SHRUNK and I look too skinny. my family are pretty concerned if i am eating right.



These are the few pictures that i find myself looking crazily skinny and scary


Penang House, April 2008


May 2008, Singapore



September, 2008



Oh ya if you are wondering how did i lose weight, well i exercised. just run run run. i lost around 7kgs in 8 weeks. but being a total noob, i didnt do any resistance after running.. as a result, i'm left with many stretch marks and orange peels on my butt :(
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So yeah.. my new target is to have a healthier looking body. Lean, Toned, Slightly muscular.... wow. imagine that. haha. I will try to achieve that! A typical Scorpio trait :) whatever we want, we will strive to get it..





Thursday, September 4, 2008

Rejected

I decided to post a picture in Axcest Hotshots. I've always wanted to try it out but i just couldn't gather enough man juice to do it. argh. anyways when i finally DID post a picture, it got rejected by the webmaster i reckon.



The Victim


HAHA! To further console myself, I've just assumed that:

A. My Picture is too DARK (but it looks bright on my phone though)
B. My Picture is too GOOD TO BE TRUE
C. They ACCIDENTALLY rejected it
D. They have bad taste

:) hehe im so jobless. i'll try again now with potential ones. why don't you help me out??!! (if you're wondering where my acne scars and pimples all went, its all thanks to my phone camera. its like it comes with auto photoshop you know. hehe. even Nate* agrees )


Picture A



Picture B



Picture C



Picture D



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Wednesday, September 3, 2008

The Secret it Out




The secret is out. i finally confessed to my parents and siblings that i am. well, Gay. haha!

no, im not kidding. anyways, im sure you're wondering Why, How and What made me do it.

well here goes.

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it started out as a fight over me being "rude" to my maid
so i was given a short lecture which leaded to an argument
as usual, everything settled down eventually and i was asked to apologize to my mom
for being rude to her as well. she was tearing non stop
heart ached to see that.

suddenly i FELT this urge to confess.
feeling really solemn and relentless
i just sat on the bed where my parents were
and just rest my head on my mom's shoulders
arms clenched, eyes shut with a little teary eyes

"Are you ok? something happened outside right? fought with your friend??"

"No" i answered sheepishly.

"Mi, De, do you love me?"

"Of course we do, no matter what..."

instantly i took a glance over at the Holy Picture of Jesus and i took a deep breath of faith in Him and told them i like guys.

it was just a second of silence. " I am gay.. I like guys.. I tried to like girls but i just can't.. Sorry i lied to you all my life.. I didn't want to tell because i don't want to hurt you all.. Will you all disown me?? Do you still love me?"

"Yes of course.! actually we're known it a long time ago. since you were young. you were different. we just kept silent in hopes of you changing. but no matter what, it is okay and we still love you a lot Ryan.."

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things are pretty much still the same now. just that i'm loved even more now. seriously. my relationship with my parents and sisters had tremendously improved. especially with my dad. we talk more now as i have nothing to hide. we can even laugh and make jokes now. he even gives me more money to spend now . WEIRD, i know. haha.

Well so far they haven't asked me about my personal things yet such as do i have a boyfriend or not. but im hoping to introduce my future boyfriend to my family. that is if i can ever find the right and BEST BEST boyfriend i can ever hope for.

Monday, August 4, 2008

I REALLY LOVE SINGAPORE :)



The Sudden Plan..
Recently Nate* and I decided to visit our dear Eddy who is studying in Singapore. He comes back to KL once a month but this time we decided to pay him a visit :)

On The Bus..
Nate and i sampat-ed on the bus. we can just blabber non stop all day long as usual =P

The Arrival
Talking nonsense really made the trip seem short you know.. we could see Eddy standing by the side of the bus....... with his SHORT shorts, GLAMOROUS Marc Jacobs Shades and nevertheless his freaking nice Gucci Bag. lovely~

we got down from the bus and *group hug-ed* haha


oh ya IRONICALLY, Nate and Eddy were wearing the same top from TOPMan and their SHORT shorts were exactly the same. ahem and they also had brand new white Puma shoes on. what the hell... talk about coincidence head to toe :S

i got my first MRT Card!! its called the Ezi Link card. huhu. so yeah we headed to Eddy's crib in Aljunied or something.


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THE CRIB, finally...
*AHEM* Eddy's crib in Singapore was a total contrary of his house back in Sunway :P so nice and cozy and really clean............

he even cleaned the house really thoroughly a day before we came. really appreciate his great hospitality. I miss that place even more now. haha.



The "journey" begins....

anyway it was a Saturday afternoon and we were hungry. Eddy took us to this Beef Hor Fun near his condo which taste so damn good. hmm after that we went to some places like City Hall, Raffles City, and Bugis for dinner if i am not mistaken. we wanted to have a nice dinner in Jazz something as recommended by XiaXue the ubber cool blogger. but it was pretty late already as we wanted to CLUB. huhu!

oh ya Ed's house mate, Natasya or also knows as Ade had dinner with us! she is Indonesian, just 14 and i think she is so bubbly funny and cute!! hahaha. Nate thinks she is really adorable too!

"gigik bangat??"




Funny Memorable moments number one...

after makan-ing we went to jalan-jalan. Nate and i were leading the way as we were so fascinated by the sea of stalls at the main entrance. it was like a food fair. as we were walking, we could hear eddy bursting out laughing and we turned back to see what happened..... :P


apparently Ade's flats SNAPPED and she was walking barefooted and holding the pity lifeless flats on one hand!! =P LOL it was crazily hilarious. they went to get a new pair of course, which i think matched her outfit even better that night. eddy has good taste? haha. perhaps

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CLUBBING BAYBEH~


"P L A Y"
There was already a queue as we reached the club. we were kinda tired and sweaty after walking from the station to the club. what happened to those fairygod gayfathers.? sigh..

As usual, being gay, my eyes just scanned around :) no one caught my attention yet.....

Ryan's Radar Analysis:

Atmosphere: i love that is it a non smoking club. Quite stingy in spacing :S Overworked in the UV lights because wherever you go, anything white turns neon purple INCLUDING YOUR TEETH AND EYES. freaky~ can u imagine when you dance and someone tries to smile at you and all you can see is a purple glow? like pontianak..... LOL

GuyWatch: A mixture of young and middle aged group. that night, we spotted a few guys wearing cap and they were really attractive! one of them even tried to approach Nate but i guess he was too chicken =S i think my market that night was not bad also just that i think i attract wrong people all the time. bleh... oh ya and there is also this other guy wearing a brown Abercrombie shirt. he is so cute especially when he smiles and dance!! Eddy and I were kinda going gaga...... XP *DROOL ME A RIVER BABE*


SoYouThinkYouCanDance? : aiyyer.. no match for Eddy and Nate . they OUTSHINED :)

"Fashionista": everyone dressed nicely :) which is great

FrequentMirrorCheckers: the toilets are quite clean but i love the full walled mirror in the cubicle. you can see a million of your penis while you pee :)

Freak'OMeter: yes a few. one in particular is a total FREAK. despite telling him i already have a boyfriend back in Malaysia, he still tried to hook up with me as if i am stupid. the GROSS-est thing was when he freaking licked my ear. more like tongued my ear. really disrespectful and rude. excused myself and went to the toilet and rinse my ear. I WISHED i had some Holy Water that time. anyway we saw him again in the food stall later. this time he targeted Nate. argh. get a life.

Musica: i like =D

The Devil's Nectar: the Cranberry Vodka we got was really infused with Vodka.! so generous..... ;)
water is free

CoverCharge: 15SGD

AgeRequirement: strictly 18 and above. they check each and every individual wei...


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im so tired now. so yeah.
PART 2 will come soon with pictures... because i need to BLANKO Nate's face. he is tooooo CHIO thats why. hahaha

Friday, May 30, 2008

sorry

i want to express how sorry i am for not updating my blog. i think my SICKnDiRTY gauge is running low. still planning to delete this blog posts and change it into a whole new video concept. haha. any suggestions? i feel like video blogging would be far more better to show the crayzeee side of me..

i was thinking of themes such as Where to Shop, Where to hang out, Room Makeovers, Guys..... Sexy yummy guys.. and many more..

anyway a guy posted a comment on my post "If i weren't Gay".. seriously i think he is kinda cute, seems nice, does charity and............ hahaha. i shall leave those dots in misery. anyways i read his blog and heck there were so many comments by other guys. ryan, wake up please...

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

If i wasn't GAY

If i wasn't gay, I would probably be wondering what is it like being gay

If i wasn't gay, I would probably make many people think i am gay

If i wasn't gay, I would probably have a girlfriend by now

If i wasn't gay, I would probably be watching straight porn

If i wasn't gay, I would probably be looking at every hot girl's boobs

If i wasn't gay, I would probably be erecting when i see naked girls

If i wasn't gay, I would probably be fucking pussies ( eew )

If i wasn't gay, this blog wouldn't exist...



...... but TOO BAD.! im SOOOO DARN GAY XP