Today was such a gloomy dark day. The weather unravels the way i felt about gay life now.
What my dad told me after i came back from clubbing one night a month ago was entirely true - "you won't know what are people like and their agendas. but they are like sharks lurking in the deadly sea, waiting to eat you up"
i am now still in a state of shock, confused, stunned, shunned and afraid. i want to cry. but on who's shoulders?
worry not, i was not raped or bullied or anything.
just ripped apart
today i learnt my lesson that people cannot be trusted. especially in the gay circle. it is like everyone has their hidden agenda. behind those smile and sweet talks lies a poisoned dagger.
we were like sheeps who took a step into the tiger's den on a "temporary high" ..
it gives me chills now to think that I've almost put my friends' life in jeopardy
a scar was engraved in my heart but it was worth it as now i have snapped out of it
trust me, the gay world is not a place to be if you have a heart like mine. a faint heart. vulnarable heart. an easily shattered heart.
anyway, know who your true friends are and treasure them.
don't go out to parties with people you are not familiar with.
i now know who not to mingle with and be even more careful when knowing someone new.
"You better think twice, watch out or you might just fall under" -Rihanna, Disturbia.
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ryan u ok??
wht happened??
was it the that night it happened??
i'm here to borrow u my shoulder to cry on!
be strong....
JJ
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